The abusive husband hates me but loves me and won't let me get out.?

Thats the way abusive people work, they try to make you think its all your fault so you feel down on your self and think you can't get any better so you become dependent on them. You think you love him but you don't you just are with him because thats all you know, you can't get away because you think because you the person at fault and YOUR NOT!!! He is manipulating you to think your the bad person and then he turns around and tells you he loves you to get you back and make you think he will change but he NEVER will. Hun you need to get out NO ONE EVER deserves to be hit. Get out now and fast because it wont change it wont get better trust me you will find someone who loves and cares for you and if you get in a fight they wont hit you. You don't deserve to waste your life with that. Stay with a family member or friend and put a restraining order on him so he can't come near you so you wont have to be afraid. This is a serious crime i suggest you write a report and get out. God knows you deserve a good life!